a little photo, a big change

oct 22nd

i took a picture when i found out the news.

it was 7 in the morning and ronnie was sleeping.

when my three minutes were up and i became a mommy,

i got back in bed and woke ronnie up to tell him.

if you wanted a picture that was truly accurate,

i would be crying,

and ronnie would be laughing.

he also asked if i was kidding three times.

it wasn't that i was devastated to be pregnant.

it was just 

SO HUGE.

so life changing.
so scary.

it's a lot to take in.

and it's weird,

but i feel like i started

changing the things i thought i had planned for my life

just hours after finding out.

our trip to europe in june?  cancelled.

buying the farm in illinois? gone.

instead i was thinking,

 which room i would make the nursery.

what theme i would want for the first birthday.

how i was going to share the news with my family and friends.

and baby names.

in fact, by the next night, i had my baby names list

printed out and on our night stand table.

who am i?

and it's weird.

i know i keep saying that,

but while i'm disappointed in some of the things

that i have to give up.

the other stuff is just as exciting.

so very exciting.

planning future pictures

oct 21st

i saw this on pinterest.

and while i'm nervous to actually pin anything

having to do with a baby

with fear that someone will figure me out,

i decided to save it to the ol' blog for future references.

cute right?

so since i had on make up

and was getting ready to go to the pumpkin patch with my family,

i thought i snap a quick picture to get the "before" shot.

i'll probably take the next when i'm at 30 weeks.

someone remind me.

symtoms

oct 20th

this post is about pregnancy

and therefore, might not be suitable for anyone not female. 

or modest.

the reason i took a pregnancy test

was because i legitimately couldn't remember when i had my last period.

i was having cramps, so i kept thinking it was coming any minute,

until it just never came.

speaking of cramps,

all my life i've had the period of tinker bell.

it starts on tuesday or wednesday,

and i'm done by friday or saturday.

only 3 or 4 days.

no bad cramping.

no crazy bitch mood swings.

(or at least i don't think, maybe we should ask ronald)

but now?

now, i'm having cramps the majority of the day,

everyday.

i find myself hunched over with a pained expression

and then i remember i'm supposed to be masking

my "situation" and try to carry on.

i'm not used to this.

some might consider these light cramps,

but i don't know because i have nothing to compare it to.

which makes me think that the pain of the actual birth

will probably send me over the edge.

maybe i should be thanking these cramps for starting to prepare me for the pain that is to come?

i don't know, i might be slightly (that's a lie, i'm terrified) nervous about getting this kiddo out of me.

and even though it IS natural.

it doesn't seem natural.

it seems like torture.

just saying.

anyway...

my doctor appointment isn't until next week,

so i looked up what these cramps are

and it says my uterus is expanding.

awesome.

just what i was afraid of,

my body is already preparing itself to be large.

move over willy,

there's another whale on it's way.

planning for a baby

 

ronnie and i found out we were pregnant on october 14th.
it was a sunday.
i documented it, so i had a good memory of the day.
and my first blog post was three days later...

 

oct 17th

i've been on birth control since i was 17.

(hey mom and dad!)

i figured after being on it for

t w e l v e   y e a r s

it would take a minute or two,
or three months

to get out of my system.

not so much.

it took ten days.

i got off bc in september.

i thought i could take this fall

to clean out my system

and then start "trying"in january.

and if you don't know me very well,

then you should know this:

i am a planner.

to the max.

and i wanted a fall baby.

- we don't have any fall birthdays in the family.

- the parties would be fun to plan.

- its my favorite season.

perfect, yes?

unless you don't get pregnant in january

and instead, get pregnant in september.

which puts you due june 12th.

- madeline's birthday is in june.

- ronnie graduates in june.

- its hot in june.

not my plan,

but june it is.

so my uber planned out life,

just got a 4 month kick-start.

the lesson here is:

as soon as you're off bc,

consider yourself baby ready.

oh, and feel free to call me myrtle.

fertile myrtle.

santa baby

merry christmas,

we're having a baby!

'tis the season

for big dreams
& small wonders.

 

 

our small wonder arrives in june.

 

 

 

 

and yes, i've been blogging about my pregnancy since day one.

i have a lot of posts to share from all the way back in october.

are you ready to catch up with the cox's and our pregnancy adventure?

 

i'll be sharing my posts day by day, so starting tomorrow,

get ready to go back in time.

 

 

hope everyone had a

blessed,

family-filled

 Christmas,

with too much food and presents.

 

love it.

a little trip to the hospital

there are two types of people in this world.

the type that laughs when you fall

and the type that helps you up.

i admit that i am type one.

recently proven when ronnie "collapsed"

(his description, not mine)

after dinner and i kept right on talking

to my dear friend margie and laughing at him.

it wasn't until later,

5am the next morning

when i realized that he wasn't just being dramatic

so i decided to help and take him to the hospital.

we thought he might have a hernia,

so after a x-ray, mri, and many exams,

some i regret being in the room for,

the doctor told us ronnie has three separate issues.

1. an infection in his prostate

2. a bulging disc and fragments broken in his back

3. epididymitis

he was prescribed a cocktail of several different medicines

and put on bed rest. he went back to work this week,

but we have an appt. with orthopedic specialist on monday

to find out if ronnie will need back surgery, injections or physical therapy.

what a sa-weet christmas eve we have planned.

i'll let you know what we find out.

ice queen

what makes you bite your husband's

 head off faster than shit?

 

 

answer:

falling on the ice in a snow storm

because his precious jeep got a spot

in the garage, while your 4runner sits

outside on the slippery drive way.

 

 

ronnie and i may or may not have

made a scene for all our neighbors to see.

 

no worries.

i wasn't injured,

but my 4runner is now

safe in the garage.

 

 

one point for me.