doctor appt #1

oct 29th

i went to the doctor.

i am 8 weeks pregnant.

officially due june 12th.

well, i guess not "officially" because they can tell more once i have a sonogram

and they don't do that until your second or third appointment.

right now they are just going off the date of my last period,

which i totally might be wrong.

it was my best guess based off my birth control.

my second appointment is not until november 14th.

that is when we might be able to see the little kiddo and hear the heartbeat.

so this appointment was

going over what i can and cannot do/eat/etc.

they also took four vials of blood and i felt like shit after.

but they did give me a book, two magazines, a cooler for milk, and lots of pamphlets.

looks like i have some reading to do.

all in all, it still left me anxious for more and

now i'm counting down the days to november 14th.

i just want to make sure everything is looking and sounding perfect.

and i'd like to meet my doctor.

my other obgyn is fired.

she obviously wasn't my fave.

even though she'd probably be thrilled at my decision to have a kid,

she also stopped delivering and her partner will only deliver on the plaza.

i'm staying in lee's summit.

it will be easier on ronnie and my puppies when this kid comes.

and i'm all about making things easy.

excuses

oct 23th

we have a some festive events planned in the next few weeks

and i'm nervous that someone is going to catch on that i'm not drinking.

so i came up with this:



reasons i will tell my friends why i'm not drinking:

i'm on antibiotics.

i'm on a diet.

yep, that's all i got.

this might be hard.

but then i remembered when fanger was prego,

we were at a bar drinking before a wedding reception

and she had jake, her husband, drink a beer

and then secretly had the bartender refill it with water

and give it to her.

genius.

we're having a halloween party at our house in a week.

ronnie is saving his beer bottles and we are going to refill them with water.

that will be my designated six pack.

in order for this to work,

no one can offer me a drink.

no one can try to drink my drink.

and no one can find my already-opened-six-pack.

hopefully, this works.

and hopefully, my friends (kassie) won't try to force shots on me.

a little photo, a big change

oct 22nd

i took a picture when i found out the news.

it was 7 in the morning and ronnie was sleeping.

when my three minutes were up and i became a mommy,

i got back in bed and woke ronnie up to tell him.

if you wanted a picture that was truly accurate,

i would be crying,

and ronnie would be laughing.

he also asked if i was kidding three times.

it wasn't that i was devastated to be pregnant.

it was just 

SO HUGE.

so life changing.
so scary.

it's a lot to take in.

and it's weird,

but i feel like i started

changing the things i thought i had planned for my life

just hours after finding out.

our trip to europe in june?  cancelled.

buying the farm in illinois? gone.

instead i was thinking,

 which room i would make the nursery.

what theme i would want for the first birthday.

how i was going to share the news with my family and friends.

and baby names.

in fact, by the next night, i had my baby names list

printed out and on our night stand table.

who am i?

and it's weird.

i know i keep saying that,

but while i'm disappointed in some of the things

that i have to give up.

the other stuff is just as exciting.

so very exciting.

planning future pictures

oct 21st

i saw this on pinterest.

and while i'm nervous to actually pin anything

having to do with a baby

with fear that someone will figure me out,

i decided to save it to the ol' blog for future references.

cute right?

so since i had on make up

and was getting ready to go to the pumpkin patch with my family,

i thought i snap a quick picture to get the "before" shot.

i'll probably take the next when i'm at 30 weeks.

someone remind me.

symtoms

oct 20th

this post is about pregnancy

and therefore, might not be suitable for anyone not female. 

or modest.

the reason i took a pregnancy test

was because i legitimately couldn't remember when i had my last period.

i was having cramps, so i kept thinking it was coming any minute,

until it just never came.

speaking of cramps,

all my life i've had the period of tinker bell.

it starts on tuesday or wednesday,

and i'm done by friday or saturday.

only 3 or 4 days.

no bad cramping.

no crazy bitch mood swings.

(or at least i don't think, maybe we should ask ronald)

but now?

now, i'm having cramps the majority of the day,

everyday.

i find myself hunched over with a pained expression

and then i remember i'm supposed to be masking

my "situation" and try to carry on.

i'm not used to this.

some might consider these light cramps,

but i don't know because i have nothing to compare it to.

which makes me think that the pain of the actual birth

will probably send me over the edge.

maybe i should be thanking these cramps for starting to prepare me for the pain that is to come?

i don't know, i might be slightly (that's a lie, i'm terrified) nervous about getting this kiddo out of me.

and even though it IS natural.

it doesn't seem natural.

it seems like torture.

just saying.

anyway...

my doctor appointment isn't until next week,

so i looked up what these cramps are

and it says my uterus is expanding.

awesome.

just what i was afraid of,

my body is already preparing itself to be large.

move over willy,

there's another whale on it's way.

planning for a baby

 

ronnie and i found out we were pregnant on october 14th.
it was a sunday.
i documented it, so i had a good memory of the day.
and my first blog post was three days later...

 

oct 17th

i've been on birth control since i was 17.

(hey mom and dad!)

i figured after being on it for

t w e l v e   y e a r s

it would take a minute or two,
or three months

to get out of my system.

not so much.

it took ten days.

i got off bc in september.

i thought i could take this fall

to clean out my system

and then start "trying"in january.

and if you don't know me very well,

then you should know this:

i am a planner.

to the max.

and i wanted a fall baby.

- we don't have any fall birthdays in the family.

- the parties would be fun to plan.

- its my favorite season.

perfect, yes?

unless you don't get pregnant in january

and instead, get pregnant in september.

which puts you due june 12th.

- madeline's birthday is in june.

- ronnie graduates in june.

- its hot in june.

not my plan,

but june it is.

so my uber planned out life,

just got a 4 month kick-start.

the lesson here is:

as soon as you're off bc,

consider yourself baby ready.

oh, and feel free to call me myrtle.

fertile myrtle.

santa baby

merry christmas,

we're having a baby!

'tis the season

for big dreams
& small wonders.

 

 

our small wonder arrives in june.

 

 

 

 

and yes, i've been blogging about my pregnancy since day one.

i have a lot of posts to share from all the way back in october.

are you ready to catch up with the cox's and our pregnancy adventure?

 

i'll be sharing my posts day by day, so starting tomorrow,

get ready to go back in time.

 

 

hope everyone had a

blessed,

family-filled

 Christmas,

with too much food and presents.

 

love it.