Monday, December 31, 2012

a little photo, a big change

oct 22nd

i took a picture when i found out the news.

it was 7 in the morning and ronnie was sleeping.
when my three minutes were up and i became a mommy,
i got back in bed and woke ronnie up to tell him.
if you wanted a picture that was truly accurate,
i would be crying,
and ronnie would be laughing.
he also asked if i was kidding three times.

it wasn't that i was devastated to be pregnant.
it was just 
so life changing.
so scary.
it's a lot to take in.

and it's weird,
but i feel like i started
changing the things i thought i had planned for my life
just hours after finding out.

our trip to europe in june?  cancelled.
buying the farm in illinois? gone.

instead i was thinking,
 which room i would make the nursery.
what theme i would want for the first birthday.
how i was going to share the news with my family and friends.
and baby names.
in fact, by the next night, i had my baby names list
printed out and on our night stand table.
who am i?

and it's weird.
i know i keep saying that,
but while i'm disappointed in some of the things
that i have to give up.
the other stuff is just as exciting.

so very exciting.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

planning future pictures

oct 21st

i saw this on pinterest.
and while i'm nervous to actually pin anything
having to do with a baby
with fear that someone will figure me out,
i decided to save it to the ol' blog for future references.

cute right?
so since i had on make up
and was getting ready to go to the pumpkin patch with my family,
i thought i snap a quick picture to get the "before" shot.

i'll probably take the next when i'm at 30 weeks.
someone remind me.

Friday, December 28, 2012


oct 20th

this post is about pregnancy
and therefore, might not be suitable for anyone not female. 
or modest.

the reason i took a pregnancy test
was because i legitimately couldn't remember when i had my last period.
i was having cramps, so i kept thinking it was coming any minute,
until it just never came.

speaking of cramps,

all my life i've had the period of tinker bell.
it starts on tuesday or wednesday,
and i'm done by friday or saturday.
only 3 or 4 days.
no bad cramping.
no crazy bitch mood swings.
(or at least i don't think, maybe we should ask ronald)

but now?
now, i'm having cramps the majority of the day,
i find myself hunched over with a pained expression
and then i remember i'm supposed to be masking
my "situation" and try to carry on.
i'm not used to this.
some might consider these light cramps,
but i don't know because i have nothing to compare it to.
which makes me think that the pain of the actual birth
will probably send me over the edge.
maybe i should be thanking these cramps for starting to prepare me for the pain that is to come?
i don't know, i might be slightly (that's a lie, i'm terrified) nervous about getting this kiddo out of me.
and even though it IS natural.
it doesn't seem natural.
it seems like torture.
just saying.

my doctor appointment isn't until next week,
so i looked up what these cramps are
and it says my uterus is expanding.

just what i was afraid of,
my body is already preparing itself to be large.

move over willy,
there's another whale on it's way.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

planning for a baby


ronnie and i found out we were pregnant on october 14th.
it was a sunday.
i documented it, so i had a good memory of the day.
and my first blog post was three days later...

oct 17th
i've been on birth control since i was 17.
(hey mom and dad!)
i figured after being on it for
t w e l v e   y e a r s
it would take a minute or two,
or three months
to get out of my system.

not so much.
it took ten days.

i got off bc in september.
i thought i could take this fall
to clean out my system
and then start "trying"in january.

and if you don't know me very well,
then you should know this:
i am a planner.
to the max.
and i wanted a fall baby.
- we don't have any fall birthdays in the family.
- the parties would be fun to plan.
- its my favorite season.

perfect, yes?
unless you don't get pregnant in january
and instead, get pregnant in september.
which puts you due june 12th.
- madeline's birthday is in june.
- ronnie graduates in june.
- its hot in june.

not my plan,
but june it is.

so my uber planned out life,
just got a 4 month kick-start.

the lesson here is:
as soon as you're off bc,
consider yourself baby ready.

oh, and feel free to call me myrtle.
fertile myrtle.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

santa baby

merry christmas,
we're having a baby!
'tis the season
for big dreams
& small wonders.
our small wonder arrives in june.
and yes, i've been blogging about my pregnancy since day one.
i have a lot of posts to share from all the way back in october.
are you ready to catch up with the cox's and our pregnancy adventure?
i'll be sharing my posts day by day, so starting tomorrow,
get ready to go back in time.
hope everyone had a
with too much food and presents.
love it.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

a little trip to the hospital

there are two types of people in this world.
the type that laughs when you fall
and the type that helps you up.

i admit that i am type one.
recently proven when ronnie "collapsed"
(his description, not mine)
after dinner and i kept right on talking
to my dear friend margie and laughing at him.

it wasn't until later,
5am the next morning
when i realized that he wasn't just being dramatic
so i decided to help and take him to the hospital.

we thought he might have a hernia,
so after a x-ray, mri, and many exams,
some i regret being in the room for,
the doctor told us ronnie has three separate issues.

1. an infection in his prostate
2. a bulging disc and fragments broken in his back
3. epididymitis

he was prescribed a cocktail of several different medicines
and put on bed rest. he went back to work this week,
but we have an appt. with orthopedic specialist on monday
to find out if ronnie will need back surgery, injections or physical therapy.

what a sa-weet christmas eve we have planned.
i'll let you know what we find out.

Friday, December 21, 2012

ice queen

what makes you bite your husband's
 head off faster than shit?
falling on the ice in a snow storm
because his precious jeep got a spot
in the garage, while your 4runner sits
outside on the slippery drive way.
ronnie and i may or may not have
made a scene for all our neighbors to see.
no worries.
i wasn't injured,
but my 4runner is now
safe in the garage.
one point for me.

Monday, December 10, 2012

say it with me: or-gan-i-za-tion

is it too early to know my
new year's resolution?

because i have my pegged.
it's called organization.

some people are born with it.
ronnie, for one, has to have things in order.
you've seen my closets.
i am obviously not worried about it.
but it drives him crazy.
i've never understood his concern with MY closet,
but i guess its time i jump on his bandwagon.

i take up four closets in this house
and think its because nothing has a place,
so i just throw it anywhere.
i even told ronnie he could buy me closet organizers
for a christmas gift.
(i should get some sort of gold star for that)

so hopefully this winter,
when we can't play outside,
i will be reorganizing all my clothes.

or maybe i'll make ronnie do it,
while i watch.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

name that movie

we're having an open house at work
and they asked us to come up with some
sort of game to play for customer to win prizes.
i thought "name that christmas movie quote" would be fun.

wanna see if you're any good?

It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags.

Look, Daddy. Teacher says, every time a bell rings an angel gets his wings.

Santa, how come your clothes are so baggy?
Because Santa is...watching his saturated fats!
How come you don’t have a beard?
Because I shaved.  Now, do you want this doll or not?!? Go back to sleep!

Only I didn't say fudge.
I said THE word, the big one, the queen-mother of dirty words,
the "F-dash-dash-dash" word!

Why is the carpet all wet, Todd?
I don’t know, Maarrgo.

You stink. You smell like beef and cheese, you don't smell like Santa."

Merry Christmas, you filthy animal.

If you're really Santa Claus, you can get it for me.
And if you can't, you're only a nice man with a white beard like mother says.

Seeing isn’t believing. Believing is seeing.

Aunt Clara had, for years, labored under the delusion
that I was not only perpetually four years old, but also a girl.

Can I refill your eggnog for you? Get you something to eat?
Drive you out to the middle of nowhere and leave you for dead?

just a little fun for the holidays!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

the middle is the best part

on saturday we went to ronnie's sister's
to hang out with her family since we hadn't
seen them in awhile.

i made cookies to take to them.
chocolate chip cookies stuffed with rolos.
yes, they are as good as they sound.

i won't bore you with the chocolate chip cookie recipe details,
since i'm sure everyone has one,
but just remember to
freeze your bag of rolos for an hour.
make your normal cookie batter,
roll them into balls with a frozen rolos in the middle.

then throw them back in the freezer for 20 mins
and bake at 350 for 13 mins.

so so so good.
and i think you could just buy
a tub of chocolate chip cookie dough
and have these done in literally 20 mins.
my kind of cookie.

oh and next time, i might try peanut butter cookie dough.
brilliant, right?

ps- i stole these pictures off the internet.
those are not my man hands featured in picture #1.
just to clarify...

Monday, December 3, 2012

the ups and downs of today

i made crockpot chicken today
and it was a fail.
chicken, carrots, potatoes, onion, a packet of chicken gravy.
how could that not be good?
but it wasn't.
the chicken was dry.
i thought about throwing it away.
ronnie didn't even try to act like it was good.
not cool.

but on the upside,
i did get to rock out my new dress
thanks to the new blog i follow
that i mentioned here.
she had it on and my friend at work and i decided to buy it.
plus it gives me a great excuse to bust out my
new birthday shoes too.

what else...

i find myself wishing for the weekends.
work is not fun,
 but christmas plans are.
we have shopping day
cookie day
4 family dinners
and ugly christmas sweater party.
i'm looking forward to it all,
so work really gets in the way.

speaking of work,
i'm looking for a new venture.
well maybe.
i might stay where i'm at,
but in a new position.
so basically,
its all up in the air.
but i wouldn't mind some positive thoughts
being sent my way.
and while you're at it,
throw ronnie in there too.
his B I G test is this saturday.
the one he has to pass
to be done with school.
i would really love it if he passes.

cross your fingers
and wish us luck.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

12 days of christmas

has anyone heard this song on the radio?
and since its only 23 days until christmas,
i thought i could share.
it's my favorite.
so funny.
and the guys are so good.
reminds me of the warblers on glee.
now i really want to see them in concert.
they're coming to kc soon.
who's coming with me?

because i know ronnie's not interested.